Decide to live fully today

A couple of months ago, I decided to end a toxic relationship that was affecting my life. I was anxious, couldn't sleep much, and when I did, I would have nightmares with this situation. I bet that many of you have been in the same situation.... You're right, I was consumed by work. I was consumed to the point that when people saw me they would ask me to "relax" even if I didn't tell them about what I was going through.

Abusive relationships are not ok, no matter the context. Before quitting my job, I was certainly unsure about my future, and would not pull the trigger because of that stupid fear of "what if I don't find a job", or "what if I don't get offered the same amount of money", or EVEN WORST, "what if I lose my status". It's incredible how much social perception can affect our behavior, and how many things we hold back due to the fear of being judged. 

Not many people would know about my struggle. My husband and family were very supportive about it. They would see me cry, and get angry at the different issues I was facing. I was just losing myself!  As funny as it sounds, I just decided to make a decision after a heart felt conversation I had with a new friend, over a beer and pizza. 

I was convinced after that conversation, and I sent my resignation letter 24 hours after that. It was the best feeling ever! - Even if that decision would lead me to a couple of months without an income, I felt like the most empowered woman in the world. I was able to sleep at night, and I swore I was never going to let anyone else abuse me, or make me doubt myself. I even took a picture when I was onboarding the person who would be my replacement (I look as happy as when I see a donut, or a newly born puppy).

Three months have gone by, and I started a new job today. I was welcomed by my coworkers, and they seemed happy to have me in the team. I honestly don't know what the future holds. I wish it's a long lasting stay at this place, and i'll give my 200% to make it happen. Isn't that what winners do? Just keep going, and have a relentless attitude.

The most important takeaway of this is to believe in yourself, and know that you are worth to be treated with respect. Also to remember that sometimes you will receive great advises from unexpected people, so don't close your eyes! 

Embrace love, and work for the life you deserve.

 

With love,

G