So my last couple articles have talked about my summer journey to becoming my best self. I have been eating healthier and really cracking down with my workouts, and I’ve been seeing results.
What I’m most proud of, however, is not the results. It’s the attitude that I’ve managed to maintain so far on my journey. I have been very positive this WHOLE TIME.
Up until now. I hit a little snag yesterday after my shower, when I was feeling all shaved and smooth and fit and lovely until I caught a glimpse of myself at a bad angle. And what did I see?
Stretch marks. ALL up and down my hips. Cellulite, all over the back of my thighs. The bad angle paired with the horrible fluorescent lighting in my dorm room pushed all positive thoughts about my journey out of my head. I was horrified.
I mean it. HORRIFIED.
I immediately put on some baggy shorts and tried to pretend that I didn’t see it, all the while knowing that this was a DIRECT contradiction to my body positive health regime.
But today I was thinking about it while I was on my run. While I run, I can feel my thighs jiggling and I know that there are bumps and lumps in different places on my body. Even though I’m eating healthy and taking care of myself, that won’t necessarily change.
And there will always be bad angles. Sometimes we’ll catch ourselves in bad light that highlights our stretch marks or our cellulite, or that makes us look old or like we have bad skin or like we have bags under our eyes. Sometimes, we will feel ourselves jiggle when we run.
It’s important to remember that positivity is not something that is always natural to us. We have to work to be positive about ourselves even on the days when we feel bloated or self-conscious or defeated.
Those are the days that body positivity is most important.
We need to tell ourselves that WE ARE HUMAN. Humans have imperfections. It doesn’t matter what our perceived imperfections are; what’s important is that we don’t view ourselves negatively because of them.
Screw bad angles. Screw double chins. Screw fluorescent lighting. Seriously. We have to see past what we see as “flaws” in order to grow. We shouldn’t be horrified by those things that make us human. We should accept them as a part of us because, like I said, we’re only human.