here are a few things about myself that I‘ve loved for as long as I can remember… my perfectly shaped eyebrows, my glowing eyes, and my smile.
There was always a time where I was insecure about some part of my body, whether it was the acne on my face or back, my saggy boobs, my thick thighs and calves, my pouched stomach, or my man hands. Until about a year ago.
One day it just registered with me that I am the author of this body. I choose every day how I look, head to toe. And if I don’t like something, I can change it. AND I also discovered that I can love something exactly the way it is, even if I want to change it. By loving my entire body the way it is, I had this new found appreciation to do whatever it takes to make the changes I wanted to see for myself. AND I discovered this new found pride for the body I was living in.
Today, I am at my heaviest weight, and I carry myself around with the utmost pride. I choose to be who I am today. I love the acne that forms on my face, it’s a symbolism of the IUD that I have in me to regulate my period. I love the curves that shape my body, they give me definition and a figure like no other. I love my saggy boobs, they symbolize how much I don’t wear a bra, that they are perfect just the way they are. I love my thick thighs and calves. They are as thick and dense due to the muscle I’ve built over the years from dancing as a child and the soccer I played as a teen. My pouched stomach symbolizes my love for food, and I am so not ashamed to say that I love food. I love all kinds of food. If it's food, I’ll eat it. And my man hands. These man hands give a strong handshake, and they are so similar to my mothers and are a reminder of what an amazing and strong woman she is.
Every inch of your body tells a story about who you are and what you’ve experienced in your life, thus far. Think of your body as a canvas. And every day you can leave that canvas as is or paint a new piece and add to what’s already existing. Some lines you can cover, some you can add to, some you can change the perception of its original view.
You are the artist of this body you live inside of. Love it. Take care of it. Talk to it. Feed it. Nurture it. Feel it. Make sure it knows how in love you are with it. It protects that mind and soul of yours. Use it to your advantage. Be fully self-expressed with who you want to be through that beautiful body of yours.
Now when I walk out into the world, I walk out how I want to portray myself in that moment in time. Some days I walk out wearing sweats with UGG’s, no make-up on, hair up, glasses on. Some days I walk out with my make-up done, hair done, outfit on point like I just came out of a New York fashion show. Some days I’m half-dressed and half casual. It really all depends on how I want to express myself that day. And every day I make sure I carry myself exactly how I want to, and most importantly, with love, pride and gratitude for the body I was given to tell my story through.
The last point I want to touch base on with you all is who I am when I am at my most vulnerable way of being. Naked, in front of a man that I am about to be intimate with. This is when I am most proud of my body I have authored. I get this rush through my body as I take off my clothes. Knowing I am exposing every single inch of who I am. This is the point where I am in a state of “I know I am sexy as fuck, take me or leave me” and let me tell you people, when you KNOW you are sexy, I don’t care who the other person is, you ARE HELLA sexy to them too. It’s all in the way you love yourself and carry yourself.
When you love yourself, you GLOW to the world baby!! Get out there are start GLOWING!!
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