Who am I?
Prior to a year ago, I defined myself by the degree I did not have and where I worked. And I would sugar coat the answer in hopes that I would look better to whoever I was sharing it with.
My introduction would look something like this - “Hey I’m Amberly, and I am a retail manager at a jewelry store. I went to university but it just wasn’t for me, so I decided to become an entrepreneur. I want to be my own boss so that I can have time and financial freedom and do whatever my heart desires. So now I am doing whatever it takes to become a successful entrepreneur so I can live out my dreams.”
The truth behind all of that was that I felt like a disappointment and a failure. Not only did I drop out of university, I did so three times and each time was because I had such little passion for what I was studying. Nothing gave me that inspiration to push through until completion. And I was making myself so wrong for quitting, calling myself stupid and clueless and creating a future for myself where I would go nowhere.
I was a key holder for Pandora Jewelry and I was honestly so ashamed that I still worked in retail. I felt like it was what people did when they were in school or as a part-time job to make extra money. At this point, it was all I had. And because I declined an Assistant Manager’s position for so long, I glorified myself in the role that I was in, knowing that I was capable of so much more.
Truthfully, I felt lost. I felt like I had no true identity. And I was OVER this feeling. So, what better to do than to quit your job, pack up a backpack, and travel a totally different continent with your best friend, for two months (that’s a share for another time). After those two months, I came home and went right back into the world that I left, but this time I took the promotion in hopes that it was the missing piece I was looking for.
It was not. And the joke was really on me at this point.
Who am I today? Today who I am is defined by my goals, ambitions, and traits. And it looks something like this…
“Hi, I’m Amberly and I am an inspiring and loving woman who is on the journey to become a public figure. I am highly motivated to do whatever it takes to be the woman that this world needs in order for you to be empowered to live a life that you are in love with.”
What does that look like?
I know what I want out of this lifetime, I know what I am worthy of, I know what and who I want in my day to day space. I know what kind of man I want to marry and father my children, I know who I want to be for this world and I know not to settle for being anything less than what the world deserves to see as an example.
I am one of the most loving people you’ll ever meet; I wear my heart on my sleeve and love unconditionally. I have so much love that it needs to be shared with this world. I am filled with pure joy for all of the little things in life, and I make sure that I am constantly surrounding myself by people, places and things that provide me with such pure joy.
I am grounded, whole and complete. I have dreams, and goals and actions plans to make those dreams become a reality. And I also know what’s at stake if I don’t motivate myself to accomplish them… my dream life.
Who you all are (the readers) and what you aspire to be inspires me daily to show up for myself as an example of how you will need to learn how to show up for yourselves.
If you look hard enough, you will begin to see there is always a bright side to every situation. And at the beginning this can be tough, but by practicing this daily you’ll begin to discover the light in every situation, regardless of how dark it may seem at first. This world is full of adventure waiting for us to seize the opportunity to go exploring. Even if that means walking down a road you haven’t been down before or visiting the small town beside yours. There is so much beauty all around us.
It was not easy discovering who I was. It took a lot of dedication to want to create a whole new way of being for myself to discover who I really want to be. AND that was the key in it all. I was not discovering who I was, it was all about discovering who I wanted to be and what it would take to be that woman.
I want to know what you guys want to hear about! Reach out to me on Instagram at @ambersabourin with what’s on your mind!
Looking forward to our journey together.